waiting.

Waiting.

What are we waiting for?

Love? Happiness? Money? Sex? Hook ups?

What am I waiting for?

I don't know.

At times I wish that one day, someone will say they are proud of me. Its not the same when your mom or family members say that to you. The day a teacher or an employer tells me I did a good job, I will be happy. Satisfied.

The thing is happiness isn't a destination is an emotion. So we can't wait to be happy we just have to do. We have to find the best things we can about our lives, and be happy. It doesn't matter if its as small as a football team you like to win a game.

Its a little hypercritical of me to say to say this. Since I myself don't do it to often. I am still waiting to be happy. To be in love. To have a family. To be successful.

When I first started writing this blog I was scared to tell the world what I really felt, I mean anyone can read this and I wasn't sure how I could handle that. I have finally reached the point where I don't give a fuck if you like me or not, if you think I'm to blunt, if you think I'm a bitch.

Think what ever you want. The only time I would care what people say is if the person matters to me.

Now think back. Remember when you were in high school and you still probably do it. When you liked a guy or something and he would text you and then you would text him, and just sat there waiting. Why wait. If you have something to say, say it. If he doesn't like it then fuck it.

Its not like he is the only guy in the world.

Its like snow. People dread it. They worry about their cars and how they are going to go to work. You can't control the weather. Just like you can't control the person.

What I mean with this, is not for you to have a negative out look in life or anything its just we are all waiting for something. It doesn't matter what it is.

I have the perfect example one of my best friends, that I know I will still be friends with no matter what when I am old, I haven't seen her since we graduated. I want to see her and can't wait and I know that when it happens its going to be great. But instead of waiting and being sad about it I should be happy that I can at least talk to her. I mean time will pass and we will see each other but neither of us live in the sadness of not being able to together now.

Okay so everyone wants to have sex and everyone is nervous about their first time and how its going to be and we all want to plan it to be special and romantic or whatever but we are waiting and we shouldn't we should just let life take its course and when it happens it happens.

Romantic or not, it will happen at some point in your life. So don't sit there feeling sorry for yourself because it hasn't happened yet. Don't worry boys you won't be virgins for ever. jaja

To everyone out there. Enjoy sex. Don't wait to see what happens in the future. It will be here soon enough.